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A Path to Growing as a Human and Evolving as a Soul.
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Being aware of our beautiful lives can change the worldThe other day as I was going to work, a thought popped into my head, and I always listen to the thoughts that pop into my head. I do this because if it’s a negative thought, I know it’s my ego trying to drum up some drama. But if it’s positive, I hear it as the voice of my soul telling me something I need to hear. And the thought that popped into my head was this: “Something wonderful is going to happen today.”  Wow. I loved that thought. I immediately felt a burst of energy. “I wonder what it is?” was my next thought. I had a renewed sense of excitement because when I get those kind of thoughts, they always come true.

I was actually headed to the doctor’s office for my blood work before I started my work day, and was running a little behind. I began to notice that I was hitting every single green light on the way there. This rarely happens and I arrived in record time. “I wonder if THIS is the wonderful thing,” I thought. After all, it was a little thrilling sailing through those green lights with ease. I barely sat down when the nurse called me in. “What, already?” I thought. I was immediately introduced to the new phlebotomist who would be taking blood that day. I told her I usually have the needle put in my hand because my veins are deep and thin. I have had many phlebotomists who want to be the hero and try sticking me in the arm, but her response was,  “Great.” And within one minute I was finished with hardly feeling a pinch. And I thought to myself, “Hmm.I wonder if THIS is the wonderful thing that is happening today?” After all, green lights, no waiting in a doctor’s office, and no pain being stuck with a needle isn’t such a bad day. So far everything felt pretty wonderful. BUT, is it the really big wonderful thing that is going to happen today?

As I got to work and opened the car door, I stopped in my tracks. The sweetest little song was coming from a little bird in the tree next to my car. Its melody was so intricate and beautiful, I couldn’t help but feel a sense of joy and gratitude in my heart. I just listened and thanked it for its wonderful gift. I then did what I always do when I get to work. I open the main door, and say hello aloud to my beautiful office space. “Hello my dear office. Thank you for being here.” And I realized that I feel the same thing I always feel when I enter my office space: I’m happy and peaceful. I love being there.

As the day passed – and it was a long day, I honored each and every person that came hour after hour and I felt thankful for them all. It’s like each one of them has their own special ingredient they offer for a beautiful stew at the end of the day. Once again I felt gratitude for their story and our work together. “THIS has got to be the wonderful thing that is going to happen today,” I thought.

As soon as I got home I greeted my family and went upstairs while my husband prepared dinner, (now that’s quite a wonderful thing), and I did some painting and came downstairs to a beautiful dinner prepared with love. And after dinner, I remembered the thought that had popped into my head that morning. And I realized that the wonderful thing that I thought might be big and shiny or profound, never came in that form. Instead, this had been one of the most wonderful days of my life because I paid attention to the wonderful things that were already there. The traffic lights, the new nurse, the lack of pain, the amazing patients I have, the job and office that I love,  a husband and pets that I love and adore, good and healthy food prepared for me while I find joy in creating. . . you know. . . a usual day. A normal day that was no longer normal.  The “something wonderful that was going to happen to me,” was not something outside of me. It was a heightening of my awareness of just how beautiful life already is and how wonderful each day is if we just recognize it as such. Can you imagine if we were to do this every day? That kind of gratitude and awareness could change the world.

My love to all of you,
Connie
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vortex-of-love-connie-numbers_8-17As I was sitting out on my patio this morning with my beloved General International Foods French Vanilla Café, I felt a tremendous surge of love flow through me as if I had been hit by a bolt of lightning. In fact, it was so intense I gasped aloud and began to tear up. I knew immediately what was happening. I was being overwhelmed by love. Love had me in its tendrils and was not about to let me go. I was in the midst of recognizing how loved I am. It seemed to come from out of the blue, but there it was. I was swirling in a vortex of Love and I could literally feel my heart swelling. I took a moment to catch my breath. Where did this come from? Why now? And how could someone who felt so unloved as a child for so many years, feel so loved at this moment?

I can’t answer why the tornado of Love twisted its way toward me this morning in the way that it did, but I do know that I give out more love now in my life than ever before, so it doesn’t surprise me that I get so much of it back. But getting hit with this kind of love is something I wish for each and every one of you.

As I sat there catching my breath, I looked around and to my left I saw my husband’s garden filled with all kinds of herbs and vegetables that he uses in his cooking. Love. I saw tall sunflowers that drifted into our view this year from seedlings deposited from the side of our house last year. What a gift! Love. I was delighted at the various colors of the flowers Jeff had planted sitting in their colorful vases on the patio waiting to be admired and adored. More love. I was filled with feeling his love for the Earth and for me. Priceless love.

As I sat there feeling love in its myriad of ways, I looked up and saw the Carolina blue sky shining through the netting on my lanai. Millions of sparkles burst through the screen mesh. It had just rained during the night, and the sunlight was hitting the netting so perfectly, that it looked liked I was viewing a starry night in the middle of the day. How miraculous and beautiful it was. Universal Love.

I watched my dogs wander around the lanai waiting for someone to pass by while walking their dog so they could bark and make their presence known. Unconditional love. I heard geese in the distance getting ready to make their landing on a pond nearby. I could hear my breath slowly passing though me reminding me of how great it is to be alive at this time on this great Earth. Eternal love.

And then, suddenly, my love turned to overwhelming empathy for someone I care about who is undergoing a double mastectomy as I’m writing this. I cried for her out of love. Compassionate love.

For some reason, love has taken its tender arms and has surrounded and caressed me all morning. My point, dear ones, in this newsletter, is really quite simple. It’s nothing more than what great storytellers, songwriters or masters of anything have told us: all you need is love. What the world needs now is love, sweet love. Love is a many splendored thing. The power of love. I truly believe that when we are on our way out of this lifetime, on our death beds, that the only thing that is going to matter to us is how much we loved and how much we were loved. This is what we are going to take with us. Love.

If I could give you any advice or words of wisdom, at least for right now, it would be to let yourself be devoured and swallowed up by love. Surrender totally to love. Sit by yourself and feel the love you have for others, and then take the time to feel the love others have for you. Allow yourself to be overwhelmed with how deeply capable you are of loving, and don’t be afraid of going there. Forgive others who have hurt you and more importantly, forgive yourself for hurting others. Take a moment to inhale all the gratefulness you feel for being alive, no matter what you are going through. Say a quick prayer for those who may need one, even if it’s a stranger. Just send a quick message to the Universe telling it to send the love you’re feeling right now to whoever needs it, known or unknown. This, in itself, is a great act of love on your part.

Take the time to be aware of how loving you really are. And if you’re not as loving as you want to be, make a decision to change that. Watch yourself in action when you perform an act of kindness and feel the gift of love working through you. This is the God in you at its best.

Always remember that your true identity is Love. First and foremost, feel it for yourself. You deserve it. Allow love to lead the way in your life. When in doubt about anything ask yourself, “What would love do now?” and then act accordingly, if you can.

And finally, dear ones, be aware that like myself, you are loved by many. In fact, you are probably loved by many more than you think. And know, that at this very moment, I am sending my love to each and every one of you who are reading this newsletter. I love you. I am grateful for having you in my life, no matter what that is, and I send you many blessings of love. Pure love.

Connie
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Living as a soul first and a human secondDo you ever think about yourself as a soul rather than a human being? If you believe that you are both, have you ever just sat down for a few minutes and wondered what you are really like? You see, most people believe they have a soul, but there are many who don’t give thought to the fact that they ARE a soul. There’s the saying that says: “We think we are human beings who have a few spiritual experiences, but in reality, we are spiritual beings who have a few human experiences.” I love this statement because it gives credence to the idea that we are a soul first and a human second. So, the question is: “If I really believe that, then how am I acting as my soul? I can certainly spout off my human qualities, but what am I like as a soul, and how do I express that part of myself in my life?”

From all the spiritual mentoring I have had in my life, I have come to the conclusion that we really were created in the image and likeness of God which is peace, joy, and love. So, if that’s true, then our soul only expresses itself through the pure, positive energy of love, which includes peace and joy. And if that’s true, then it means the soul never harbors any negative energy. Ever. The human being does, but not the soul. The soul only sees love.

So, I wonder what it would feel like to be completely aware for just one day and imagine myself as the loving soul I am and then act as if I am that. For just one day. That would mean I would make sure nothing bothered me that day. That would mean I would make no judgments toward myself or others. It would mean I would be patient, and feel joy in the present moment.  It doesn’t mean I have to like everything and everyone, because our soul does have free will, but I would accept everything and everyone the way it is right now. What if I could go through a day feeling what it would be like to feel like the magnificent being I really am?

This is the assignment I am proposing to each one of us. This is our mission, should we choose to accept it.  And that mission is to try our best to see everything out of love. To take many moments and enjoy them. To look at the scenery as we drive to work and appreciate what we see rather than think about all we have to do that’s waiting for us. It might mean taking a few minutes during the day to pay attention to what we’re feeling and if it doesn’t feel good, just say, “So what? Is it really that important for us to give up feeling good right now?”  It would mean going through our day feeling grateful and blessed, because that’s who we really are. As a soul, we are incredibly grateful for being created and being given this wonderful opportunity to experience lifetimes as a human in order to evolve to the next level of our existence.

What if we were to try and see everyone we meet as a soul walking around with the DNA of God/the Source in them? What if we imagined that each of those people had a purpose here that was important to them? It doesn’t matter if they’re accomplishing their purpose or not because that’s not our business. What is our business is to wish everyone well, whether we like them or not. Sending loving thoughts to strangers and wishing them well on their journey is a gratifying mission in itself. What would it feel like to put our human self on the back burner and put our soulful self on the front one?

I have tried this mission myself. And it takes great awareness to remember during the day that this is our mission. But when we do, the rewards are incredible. I began to truly experience what it means to be a creator of my life. I was able to see how having a positive attitude about everything made such a difference in my mood. I felt uplifted, inspired and in awe of life. It was amazing to me how keeping my awareness at that level throughout the day increased my energy as well. And at the end of the day, I felt this sense of peace, joy, and love.

And then I wondered, “Why don’t you do this every day?” And that is the hardest question of all. I’ve come to realize that as humans, believe it or not, we have a resistance to feeling too good.  But that in itself, is another newsletter.

So, I am proposing, my Dear Ones, that you accept this challenge, this mission. Just try it for one day. You cannot fail at this even if you can only do it for 5 minutes. Just keep practicing throughout the day when you remember to do so, and you will see the beneficial effects if will have on you. Just acting as a soul for 5 minutes is a wonderful thing.

All my blessings to you,

Connie
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