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vortex-of-love-connie-numbers_8-17As I was sitting out on my patio this morning with my beloved General International Foods French Vanilla Café, I felt a tremendous surge of love flow through me as if I had been hit by a bolt of lightning. In fact, it was so intense I gasped aloud and began to tear up. I knew immediately what was happening. I was being overwhelmed by love. Love had me in its tendrils and was not about to let me go. I was in the midst of recognizing how loved I am. It seemed to come from out of the blue, but there it was. I was swirling in a vortex of Love and I could literally feel my heart swelling. I took a moment to catch my breath. Where did this come from? Why now? And how could someone who felt so unloved as a child for so many years, feel so loved at this moment?

I can’t answer why the tornado of Love twisted its way toward me this morning in the way that it did, but I do know that I give out more love now in my life than ever before, so it doesn’t surprise me that I get so much of it back. But getting hit with this kind of love is something I wish for each and every one of you.

As I sat there catching my breath, I looked around and to my left I saw my husband’s garden filled with all kinds of herbs and vegetables that he uses in his cooking. Love. I saw tall sunflowers that drifted into our view this year from seedlings deposited from the side of our house last year. What a gift! Love. I was delighted at the various colors of the flowers Jeff had planted sitting in their colorful vases on the patio waiting to be admired and adored. More love. I was filled with feeling his love for the Earth and for me. Priceless love.

As I sat there feeling love in its myriad of ways, I looked up and saw the Carolina blue sky shining through the netting on my lanai. Millions of sparkles burst through the screen mesh. It had just rained during the night, and the sunlight was hitting the netting so perfectly, that it looked liked I was viewing a starry night in the middle of the day. How miraculous and beautiful it was. Universal Love.

I watched my dogs wander around the lanai waiting for someone to pass by while walking their dog so they could bark and make their presence known. Unconditional love. I heard geese in the distance getting ready to make their landing on a pond nearby. I could hear my breath slowly passing though me reminding me of how great it is to be alive at this time on this great Earth. Eternal love.

And then, suddenly, my love turned to overwhelming empathy for someone I care about who is undergoing a double mastectomy as I’m writing this. I cried for her out of love. Compassionate love.

For some reason, love has taken its tender arms and has surrounded and caressed me all morning. My point, dear ones, in this newsletter, is really quite simple. It’s nothing more than what great storytellers, songwriters or masters of anything have told us: all you need is love. What the world needs now is love, sweet love. Love is a many splendored thing. The power of love. I truly believe that when we are on our way out of this lifetime, on our death beds, that the only thing that is going to matter to us is how much we loved and how much we were loved. This is what we are going to take with us. Love.

If I could give you any advice or words of wisdom, at least for right now, it would be to let yourself be devoured and swallowed up by love. Surrender totally to love. Sit by yourself and feel the love you have for others, and then take the time to feel the love others have for you. Allow yourself to be overwhelmed with how deeply capable you are of loving, and don’t be afraid of going there. Forgive others who have hurt you and more importantly, forgive yourself for hurting others. Take a moment to inhale all the gratefulness you feel for being alive, no matter what you are going through. Say a quick prayer for those who may need one, even if it’s a stranger. Just send a quick message to the Universe telling it to send the love you’re feeling right now to whoever needs it, known or unknown. This, in itself, is a great act of love on your part.

Take the time to be aware of how loving you really are. And if you’re not as loving as you want to be, make a decision to change that. Watch yourself in action when you perform an act of kindness and feel the gift of love working through you. This is the God in you at its best.

Always remember that your true identity is Love. First and foremost, feel it for yourself. You deserve it. Allow love to lead the way in your life. When in doubt about anything ask yourself, “What would love do now?” and then act accordingly, if you can.

And finally, dear ones, be aware that like myself, you are loved by many. In fact, you are probably loved by many more than you think. And know, that at this very moment, I am sending my love to each and every one of you who are reading this newsletter. I love you. I am grateful for having you in my life, no matter what that is, and I send you many blessings of love. Pure love.

Dr. Connie by Dr. Connie @
Living as a soul first and a human secondDo you ever think about yourself as a soul rather than a human being? If you believe that you are both, have you ever just sat down for a few minutes and wondered what you are really like? You see, most people believe they have a soul, but there are many who don’t give thought to the fact that they ARE a soul. There’s the saying that says: “We think we are human beings who have a few spiritual experiences, but in reality, we are spiritual beings who have a few human experiences.” I love this statement because it gives credence to the idea that we are a soul first and a human second. So, the question is: “If I really believe that, then how am I acting as my soul? I can certainly spout off my human qualities, but what am I like as a soul, and how do I express that part of myself in my life?”

From all the spiritual mentoring I have had in my life, I have come to the conclusion that we really were created in the image and likeness of God which is peace, joy, and love. So, if that’s true, then our soul only expresses itself through the pure, positive energy of love, which includes peace and joy. And if that’s true, then it means the soul never harbors any negative energy. Ever. The human being does, but not the soul. The soul only sees love.

So, I wonder what it would feel like to be completely aware for just one day and imagine myself as the loving soul I am and then act as if I am that. For just one day. That would mean I would make sure nothing bothered me that day. That would mean I would make no judgments toward myself or others. It would mean I would be patient, and feel joy in the present moment.  It doesn’t mean I have to like everything and everyone, because our soul does have free will, but I would accept everything and everyone the way it is right now. What if I could go through a day feeling what it would be like to feel like the magnificent being I really am?

This is the assignment I am proposing to each one of us. This is our mission, should we choose to accept it.  And that mission is to try our best to see everything out of love. To take many moments and enjoy them. To look at the scenery as we drive to work and appreciate what we see rather than think about all we have to do that’s waiting for us. It might mean taking a few minutes during the day to pay attention to what we’re feeling and if it doesn’t feel good, just say, “So what? Is it really that important for us to give up feeling good right now?”  It would mean going through our day feeling grateful and blessed, because that’s who we really are. As a soul, we are incredibly grateful for being created and being given this wonderful opportunity to experience lifetimes as a human in order to evolve to the next level of our existence.

What if we were to try and see everyone we meet as a soul walking around with the DNA of God/the Source in them? What if we imagined that each of those people had a purpose here that was important to them? It doesn’t matter if they’re accomplishing their purpose or not because that’s not our business. What is our business is to wish everyone well, whether we like them or not. Sending loving thoughts to strangers and wishing them well on their journey is a gratifying mission in itself. What would it feel like to put our human self on the back burner and put our soulful self on the front one?

I have tried this mission myself. And it takes great awareness to remember during the day that this is our mission. But when we do, the rewards are incredible. I began to truly experience what it means to be a creator of my life. I was able to see how having a positive attitude about everything made such a difference in my mood. I felt uplifted, inspired and in awe of life. It was amazing to me how keeping my awareness at that level throughout the day increased my energy as well. And at the end of the day, I felt this sense of peace, joy, and love.

And then I wondered, “Why don’t you do this every day?” And that is the hardest question of all. I’ve come to realize that as humans, believe it or not, we have a resistance to feeling too good.  But that in itself, is another newsletter.

So, I am proposing, my Dear Ones, that you accept this challenge, this mission. Just try it for one day. You cannot fail at this even if you can only do it for 5 minutes. Just keep practicing throughout the day when you remember to do so, and you will see the beneficial effects if will have on you. Just acting as a soul for 5 minutes is a wonderful thing.

All my blessings to you,

Dr. Connie by Dr. Connie @
Making our happiness a priorityI know it’s a bit late but Happy New Year everyone! As some of you know, I had some surgery in December and have been recuperating from that. I’m back at work since the beginning of the year and feeling wonderful. I continue to remember that the lessons of life never stop. I am always getting the opportunity to appreciate loving my life and being in this world.

In thinking of what I wanted to write about this month, I felt torn between addressing what is going on in our country regarding the election or whether I should just leave it alone. So many people are tired of the controversy and yet this is also a time when voices need to be heard, on both ends of the spectrum. So, I decided to write about this time in our lives in terms of focusing on our well being in a tumultuous time. And I will make it short and to the point. Well, maybe not too short.

1) Whether it be this time in history, or a hundred or a thousand years ago, there have always been tumultuous times. And there will always be tumultuous times. And guess what? We will learn from it. We will move forward. And as bad as people think this time period is for us, we have lived through much worse times than this. Of course, you would have to believe that you’ve lived before, in order to come to that conclusion, but I do. As bad as it seems our world is, let’s try to remember we are in a more peaceful state than ever before in our history.

2) I also truly believe that no matter who one voted for or will ever vote for, neither Political Party creates our reality. Only we do. If we believe, as individuals or a nation, that our wellbeing, our precious happiness, depends on what Republicans and Democrats agree on, then we are in big trouble since both parties have made it abundantly clear that they have no intention of ever agreeing with each other. Ever.
3) Our wellbeing as individuals, and our ability to thrive, is not dependent on anyone or anything outside of us. What we send out vibrationally, what we think and focus on is what will appear in our lives and come back to us. We have tremendous personal power. I don’t think most people believe this, which is why we put so much expectation on the ones in power to meet our needs. When we don’t know our own power, we expect it to come from someone else who promises to get things done and make our lives better. And as we’ve seen throughout the years, this doesn’t really happen in a big way because neither side, in terms of politics, is willing to let the other side thrive. That is just the way it is. And speaking of the way it is, let’s look at the positives of what is happening at this time in our lives:
There are a lot of good things happening because of this election. First, those who voted for President Trump will get to see if he can give them what they want. They needed to have their voices represented and he was the candidate who spoke directly to their needs over and over again. So, they will get to see if their candidate will come through for them. And frankly, I hope he does. Secondly, for those who didn’t vote for him, there has been a swelling of desire to take action and care about what happens in this country more than I have ever seen before. Many people are willing to step up to the plate for what they believe and for what they want. Now, more than any other time I can remember, other than the Viet Nam war, more voices are being heard about what they want based on seeing what they don’t want. This is how change occurs. This is the gift of what many would call, “crisis.” The word, “crisis,” by the way, means “opportunity” in Chinese.

4) Here’s what came in my email box this morning from Esther Hicks and the Law of Attraction. It was a good reminder:

“Most people do not realize that as they continue to find things to complain about, they disallow their own physical well-being. Many do not realize that before they were complaining about an aching body or a chronic disease, they were complaining about many other things first. It does not matter if the object of your complaint is about someone you are angry with, behavior in others that you believe is wrong, or something wrong with your own physical body. Complaining is complaining, and it disallows improvement.” --- Abraham
The more we think negatively about ourselves, or someone else, the more that negative energy comes back. In other words, it gets worse. Negativity begets more negativity. The more we look at “what is” and see everything that’s wrong with it, the more we stay trapped in it and unable to move forward. This doesn’t mean you have to like the person, believe the person, or respect the person. And it doesn’t mean you can’t have complaints or opinions. You need to stand up for what you believe. But for me, personally, it means that I wish that person’s soul well. It also means that I look at what’s right with what’s going on in the world. What good is coming out of this? It’s so important to keep focusing and thinking positive about what is good in the world in general.
5) Lastly, it’s so imperative at this time, that we get out of our own negative space, not just of complaining about what’s happening in our world, but what’s happening in our life. Let’s get back to a place of gratitude and put our personal happiness as a priority. We can’t be happy and complaining at the same time.  So, let’s choose to be happy, knowing that everything works out for us. And it does. See this ‘crisis’ as an opportunity to know on an ever deeper level, what you really want in life, and then focus and work toward that, no matter whether it relates to the election or not. Don’t let this opportunity take away from your happiness. Don’t use it as another excuse to not be happy or grateful or feeling wonderfully alive in life.

My love to all of you,
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